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Aku mmg ego , sangat ego .
2 weeks back ,
I lived in a tremendously fake life
Buat mcm nothing happened .
Buat mcm paling bahagia eventho my heart shattered into million pieces
Bcs i knw ,
Klu tunjuk sekali pun ,
No one cares as they have other things to do .
A friend went away , and others were slowly leaving behind
But i believe , they'll find when they're really in need .
Yes .
The bond was broke .
The bond was gone .
My heart broke .
Ntah la , the feeling of suddenly empty inside aint cool .
Nak sedih pun ,
It will change nothing .
I dont know what i really want .
itsokay to let them go , at least , they dont act like they're happy enough with me .
"you dont have to break whats actually broken"
Silence
Someone asked me "macam mana kak war boleh jadi kuat , bila banyak benda tengah jadi , kak war still sporting and happy , kak war nampak macam tak dak masalah"
when i heard that , i smiled .
aku dah 17 tahun ,
dah macam benda jadi ,
dah macam orang pergi .
"kami ada banyak kawan , tp semua kawan tak ikhlas"
dude , having a bestfriend , is like you having a dearest bullshit ,
kenapa nak simpan benda yang nak rosak ?
kenapa masih nak pegang benda yang nak jatuh ?
kenapa nak bergantung pada tali yang nak putus ?
yang nak pergi , biarkan lah depa pergi ,
halang pun tak dak guna ,
memang lah , klu bestfriend tu dah kita kawan sampai 10 years blablabla , tp kan ,
you know what ?
it hurts to let go , but sometimes it hurts more to hold on .
memang ah at first tu , kita rasa macam ,
rindu la bagai ,
nak fix balik friendship bagai ,
sanggup nangis setiap malam just bcs of that bullshit ,
hey come on laa ,
buat apa nak menangis untuk bullshit ,
buat apa nak nangis untuk orang yang tak pandai nak appreciate kita , macam mana kita appreciate dia ,
sanggup nangis tetiap malam ,
sanggup nak jaga hati dia .
hey sis ,
come on ,
wake up lah ,
dia bukan raja dan hang bukan hamba ,
dia bukan boss dan hang bukan kuli ,
kalau hang lepas dia ,
hang lepas beban hang ,
lepas sakit hang ,
lepas sakit kepala hang .
weh , kalau kawan hang pandai appreciate hang ,
dia tak buat la benda ni ,
dia tak backstab hang
kawan yang jenis ,
depan2 puji menggunung ,
belakang2 kutuk macam takdak hari esok ni ,
better let go ja ,
simpan pun buat apa ?
sakit hati tu tentu ada .
aku berletiaq panjang ni , untuk aku jugak ,
aku ada kawan ,
ramai ,
tapi hilang ,
sekejap ada sekejap takdak .
only 3 monkeys know me well ,
treat me well . HAHAHAHA , I LOVE YOU , MONKEYS .
orang cakap , bila dah dok satu geng ni , makan sekali ,
study sekali ,
jalan sekali ,
rehat sekali ,
berak sekali ,
kencing sekali ,
sayang ,
fikir satu ja ,
nanti dekat U ,
bukan orang yang sama hang akan kawan , unless dia pi satu U dgn hang , tu pun kalau ambik satu course lah kan ,
nanti dalam kubur ,
hang teman dia jugak ka ?
kalau ya . meh la teman aku sekali .
To my Family Bonding ,
thanks for staying when everyones leaving ,
thanks for everything ,
I LOVE YOU .
*euw* hahahahahahhaha . k
Mine β₯
"I really dont mind to share , but shes mine"
Kewar . Booskie . Sister .
Kewar rindu nurin .
Kewar rindu boobear .
Kewar rindu sister .
Kewar rindu sayang .
Kewar rindu my love
Kewar rindu my everything .
Kewar rindu adik .
Kewar rindu awk , NURIN AQILAH .
9/3/15 - first time kewar pnggil nurin , boobear β₯
14/3/15 - first time nurin pnggil kewar , booskie β₯
"For a boobear to be complete , she needs a booskie"
Thats what you said , my love .
In a year , everything happened .
Dari memalu tahap dewa , jd dah okay .
Dari tak ckp , boleh ckp smpai pukul 3/4 pagi .
Dari tak pernah jalan sekali , jd ronda sekali .
Dari tak pernah pgg tgn , jd dah pgg tgn .
Srsly ,
You changed my life .
You made my day brighter when no one else would .
You made me happy .
You made me smile .
Thts why , kewar loves you .
So much
Infinity ? Countless .
You're the precious thing tht He sent to me .
You're my everything .
Boo , dont leave me .
I need you .
Nobody compares to you .
Not even one .
Kewar sayang boo β‘
And it is too much .
I love you for the way you're .
Thanks for this year .
Forever ? Forever .
Always ? Always .
Together ? Together .
I love you ? Yes i do .
Remember this :
Whenever you're having a bad day , remind yourself,
I LOVE YOU .
Tgh cuti ni ,
Jaga diri .
Jgn mndi malam kerap tau .
Kewar tanak boo kewar sakit .
Kewar tanak boo kewar demam sbb kewar jauh dan tak boleh jaga sayang kewar .
And more thing you've to know .
Kewar rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuu nurin sangat .
Thanks for everything boo
Thanks for everything nurin
Thanks for everything sister
Thanks for eveything sayang
Thanks for everything my love
Thanks for everything my everything
Thanks for everything adik
Bcs you're my forever sister β‘
My love will always be with you .
With β₯ ,
Kewar . Booskie . Sister β‘
Rainbow π
Im only a human being π
That can be either happy or grief ππ
I've been thinking ,
Where did the rainbow goes ,
When i'm down ,
When i've nobody to cheer me up ,
When i've no one to make me smile like an idiot π
They said ,
The rainbow doesnt come by itself π ,
I have to find it .
Again ,
They said ,
They rainbow is actually everywhere ,
But only me ,
Looking for the most beautiful rainbow π
Why the rain doesnt give me the most beautiful rainbow that i desire for a long time
Oh , im a dumb ,
Im waiting for the rainbow to come over me ,
While ,
Im sitting here ,
Waiting for the rainbow ,
Im a stupid ,
Bcs im waiting for the rainbow ,
But ,
Im not searching for it .
Get my point ?
No ?
Haha .
Kbye .
Lyfe π«
Someone deserves to be happy .
I used to say ,
My happiness is my family .
But now
It changed
Aku dah tak bahagia .
Tak bahagia mcm dulu .
And the worst thing is when ,
My birthday ,
Yes , mmg mlm tu pergi celebrate mcm biasa .
Tp on tht night too ,
Abah said
"Princess , abah kena balik KL dah esk , abah ada meeting"
You know tht feeling bila
After 3 yrs birthday ,
Asyik smbut dkt asrama ja ,
And this yr ,
Still tak boleh sambut dgn abah .
Abah kata ,
Masa birthday nina , abah ada .
Tapi tak .
Nina rindu abah .
Nina tak jumpa since birthday nina lagi .
Betullah cakap bibik .
Nina akan susah jumpa abah , 2 months sekali pun payah .
Tak pa abah .
Nina faham .
Abah kerja π
My friends said ,
Hang untung apa hang nak semua hang dapat .
Tak untung weh .
Tak untung .
Barang tak boleh ganti dengan kebahagiaaan tau .
Aku nak family aku yang dulu .
Masa nina kena balik naik bus pun ,
Nina tak merungut banyak kat abah ,
Sbb abah kata ,
Abah kena pegi Europe ,
Ada project kat sana .
Tak pa abah , nina faham .
Bila nina suruh ibu mai ambik ,
Ibu kata ,
Ibu pun tak boleh .
Tak pa ibu , nina faham .
Nina cuba utk bahagia dkt asrama ,
Mcm yg abang suruh .
Sbb abg kata ,
Adik happyΒ²lah kat asrama ,
Sbb abg faham ,
Kat rumah adik menangis .
Tak pa abg , nina faham .
Ibu dgn abah kerja .
Kerja utk kita jugak π
Nina cuma kecewa sbb
Family nina bkn mcm family org lain .
Family orang lain bahagia ,
Bukan makna family kita tak bahagia ,
Cuma ibu dgn abah sibuk kerja .
Tak pa abah ,
Tak pa ibu ,
Nina faham .
Nina ada bik jah ,
Nina ada bik yah .
Tak pa ibu , abah ,
Depa boleh jaga nina π
Ibu dgn abah jgn risau tau .
Nina okay .
Nina happy kat asrama .
Abah dgn ibu jgn risau .
Nina cuba utk gelak ,
Nina cuba utk senyum .
Nina cuba tau π
Tadi nina pergi hospital dgn bibik dgn pak mail ,
Doc ckp blood pressure nina rendah ,
Doc nak tahan nina tadi ,
Nina refused .
Nina tak nak kena tahan .
Sbb abah dgn ibu dah nak balik ,
Nina nak pegi ambil abah dengan ibu dekat airport .
Nina rindu tau .
Nina tak bg bibik bagitau ibu dgn abah yang nina kena masuk wad .
Nina tak nak duduk dekat wad ..
Nina nak duduk dgn abah ibu .
Nina rindu β‘
Bye abah ,
Bye ibu .
Nina tunggu abah dgn ibu balik tau β‘
Yr one and only princess ,
NINA .
Everything β€
"You mean so much to me , β€"
Boo ,
For my last year ,
I want the night time together ,
Sleeping together,
Waking up together ,
I want to be with you ,
Just with you π
I want to spend time with you ,
To make memories ,
To spend endless amounts of time with you .
I want beauiful moments with you ,
I want to be with you on your good days or on your worst days ,
I want to shed your tears ,
I want to comfort you ,
I want to cheer you up .
I want you to be with me when im totally lost ,
I want you to hold me ,
I want you to help me when im scared ,
I want you to come right to the edge to see whats there ,
I want to make you happy as you desire ,
Not only for a moment ,
But forever π
I'll always be there ,
With you .
No matter what is going to happen ,
Because ,
My love will always be with you .
I'll give you everything that you want ,
Because ,
If you truly love someone , you want what the best for them , even it means letting go .
Please ,
Dont make us only temporary .
I love you ? Yes i do .
Because ,
You'll always be my forever π
Thanks for being there ,
Thanks for being a perfect sistur .
I love you , dearest sistur .
Uhuhks πΈ
Bcs nobody compares to you β€
Boobear β‘
" i love you more than i did before β‘ "
NURIN AQILAH β‘ Uhuks .
Thanks for coming into my life and giving me joy π
Thanks for loving me and receiving my love in return β₯
Thanks for all the memories that i will cherish forever β
But most of all ,
Thanks for being with me when i really need you ππ
Boo ,
If loving you is wrong ,
Then i dont want to be right .
If loving you is a crime ,
Then i would like to be jailed for my entire life in your heart β‘
Ihiks .
You know what ?
The sun wouldnt be red βπ»
The sea wouldnt be blue π
The stars wouldnt be bright β
And it is important for you to know ,
I wouldnt be happy without you , dear love β‘
Ermm .
There're many ways to say I LOVE YOU ,
But not enough words to say how much ππππ
I know that behind your smile , there're sorrows ,
Behind your laughter , there're are tears .
But ,
You have to know that , behind you is me ,
Who always be there for you π
Dear Booπ» ,
I love you a little bit more when you call me Booskie β
I love you a little bit more when i sleep with you π€
I love you a little bit more when you smile at me π
I love you a little bit more everydayyyyy , boobear β₯β₯
And ,
Thank you making my heart beat so fast , but so much slower at the same time π
Thank you making me smile by being with you π
Thank you for giving me memories for me to keep π
Thank you for making me feel those giggly feelings once more when i thought i wouldnt be able to feel that type of emotions again π
Thanks for being a best friend for me or should i say - a sistur πππ
And lastly , thanks for everything boobear . I love you and i'll always do π
Ermm .
I knw , i annoyed you sometimes , no , i always annoyed you β‘
And im so sorry .
Ai Laf You again .
Bye boobear .
π
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Aku mmg ego , sangat ego .
2 weeks back ,
I lived in a tremendously fake life
Buat mcm nothing happened .
Buat mcm paling bahagia eventho my heart shattered into million pieces
Bcs i knw ,
Klu tunjuk sekali pun ,
No one cares as they have other things to do .
A friend went away , and others were slowly leaving behind
But i believe , they'll find when they're really in need .
Yes .
The bond was broke .
The bond was gone .
My heart broke .
Ntah la , the feeling of suddenly empty inside aint cool .
Nak sedih pun ,
It will change nothing .
I dont know what i really want .
itsokay to let them go , at least , they dont act like they're happy enough with me .
"you dont have to break whats actually broken"
Silence
Someone asked me "macam mana kak war boleh jadi kuat , bila banyak benda tengah jadi , kak war still sporting and happy , kak war nampak macam tak dak masalah"
when i heard that , i smiled .
aku dah 17 tahun ,
dah macam benda jadi ,
dah macam orang pergi .
"kami ada banyak kawan , tp semua kawan tak ikhlas"
dude , having a bestfriend , is like you having a dearest bullshit ,
kenapa nak simpan benda yang nak rosak ?
kenapa masih nak pegang benda yang nak jatuh ?
kenapa nak bergantung pada tali yang nak putus ?
yang nak pergi , biarkan lah depa pergi ,
halang pun tak dak guna ,
memang lah , klu bestfriend tu dah kita kawan sampai 10 years blablabla , tp kan ,
you know what ?
it hurts to let go , but sometimes it hurts more to hold on .
memang ah at first tu , kita rasa macam ,
rindu la bagai ,
nak fix balik friendship bagai ,
sanggup nangis setiap malam just bcs of that bullshit ,
hey come on laa ,
buat apa nak menangis untuk bullshit ,
buat apa nak nangis untuk orang yang tak pandai nak appreciate kita , macam mana kita appreciate dia ,
sanggup nangis tetiap malam ,
sanggup nak jaga hati dia .
hey sis ,
come on ,
wake up lah ,
dia bukan raja dan hang bukan hamba ,
dia bukan boss dan hang bukan kuli ,
kalau hang lepas dia ,
hang lepas beban hang ,
lepas sakit hang ,
lepas sakit kepala hang .
weh , kalau kawan hang pandai appreciate hang ,
dia tak buat la benda ni ,
dia tak backstab hang
kawan yang jenis ,
depan2 puji menggunung ,
belakang2 kutuk macam takdak hari esok ni ,
better let go ja ,
simpan pun buat apa ?
sakit hati tu tentu ada .
aku berletiaq panjang ni , untuk aku jugak ,
aku ada kawan ,
ramai ,
tapi hilang ,
sekejap ada sekejap takdak .
only 3 monkeys know me well ,
treat me well . HAHAHAHA , I LOVE YOU , MONKEYS .
orang cakap , bila dah dok satu geng ni , makan sekali ,
study sekali ,
jalan sekali ,
rehat sekali ,
berak sekali ,
kencing sekali ,
sayang ,
fikir satu ja ,
nanti dekat U ,
bukan orang yang sama hang akan kawan , unless dia pi satu U dgn hang , tu pun kalau ambik satu course lah kan ,
nanti dalam kubur ,
hang teman dia jugak ka ?
kalau ya . meh la teman aku sekali .
To my Family Bonding ,
thanks for staying when everyones leaving ,
thanks for everything ,
I LOVE YOU .
*euw* hahahahahahhaha . k
Mine β₯
"I really dont mind to share , but shes mine"
Kewar . Booskie . Sister .
Kewar rindu nurin .
Kewar rindu boobear .
Kewar rindu sister .
Kewar rindu sayang .
Kewar rindu my love
Kewar rindu my everything .
Kewar rindu adik .
Kewar rindu awk , NURIN AQILAH .
9/3/15 - first time kewar pnggil nurin , boobear β₯
14/3/15 - first time nurin pnggil kewar , booskie β₯
"For a boobear to be complete , she needs a booskie"
Thats what you said , my love .
In a year , everything happened .
Dari memalu tahap dewa , jd dah okay .
Dari tak ckp , boleh ckp smpai pukul 3/4 pagi .
Dari tak pernah jalan sekali , jd ronda sekali .
Dari tak pernah pgg tgn , jd dah pgg tgn .
Srsly ,
You changed my life .
You made my day brighter when no one else would .
You made me happy .
You made me smile .
Thts why , kewar loves you .
So much
Infinity ? Countless .
You're the precious thing tht He sent to me .
You're my everything .
Boo , dont leave me .
I need you .
Nobody compares to you .
Not even one .
Kewar sayang boo β‘
And it is too much .
I love you for the way you're .
Thanks for this year .
Forever ? Forever .
Always ? Always .
Together ? Together .
I love you ? Yes i do .
Remember this :
Whenever you're having a bad day , remind yourself,
I LOVE YOU .
Tgh cuti ni ,
Jaga diri .
Jgn mndi malam kerap tau .
Kewar tanak boo kewar sakit .
Kewar tanak boo kewar demam sbb kewar jauh dan tak boleh jaga sayang kewar .
And more thing you've to know .
Kewar rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuu nurin sangat .
Thanks for everything boo
Thanks for everything nurin
Thanks for everything sister
Thanks for eveything sayang
Thanks for everything my love
Thanks for everything my everything
Thanks for everything adik
Bcs you're my forever sister β‘
My love will always be with you .
With β₯ ,
Kewar . Booskie . Sister β‘
Rainbow π
Im only a human being π
That can be either happy or grief ππ
I've been thinking ,
Where did the rainbow goes ,
When i'm down ,
When i've nobody to cheer me up ,
When i've no one to make me smile like an idiot π
They said ,
The rainbow doesnt come by itself π ,
I have to find it .
Again ,
They said ,
They rainbow is actually everywhere ,
But only me ,
Looking for the most beautiful rainbow π
Why the rain doesnt give me the most beautiful rainbow that i desire for a long time
Oh , im a dumb ,
Im waiting for the rainbow to come over me ,
While ,
Im sitting here ,
Waiting for the rainbow ,
Im a stupid ,
Bcs im waiting for the rainbow ,
But ,
Im not searching for it .
Get my point ?
No ?
Haha .
Kbye .
Lyfe π«
Someone deserves to be happy .
I used to say ,
My happiness is my family .
But now
It changed
Aku dah tak bahagia .
Tak bahagia mcm dulu .
And the worst thing is when ,
My birthday ,
Yes , mmg mlm tu pergi celebrate mcm biasa .
Tp on tht night too ,
Abah said
"Princess , abah kena balik KL dah esk , abah ada meeting"
You know tht feeling bila
After 3 yrs birthday ,
Asyik smbut dkt asrama ja ,
And this yr ,
Still tak boleh sambut dgn abah .
Abah kata ,
Masa birthday nina , abah ada .
Tapi tak .
Nina rindu abah .
Nina tak jumpa since birthday nina lagi .
Betullah cakap bibik .
Nina akan susah jumpa abah , 2 months sekali pun payah .
Tak pa abah .
Nina faham .
Abah kerja π
My friends said ,
Hang untung apa hang nak semua hang dapat .
Tak untung weh .
Tak untung .
Barang tak boleh ganti dengan kebahagiaaan tau .
Aku nak family aku yang dulu .
Masa nina kena balik naik bus pun ,
Nina tak merungut banyak kat abah ,
Sbb abah kata ,
Abah kena pegi Europe ,
Ada project kat sana .
Tak pa abah , nina faham .
Bila nina suruh ibu mai ambik ,
Ibu kata ,
Ibu pun tak boleh .
Tak pa ibu , nina faham .
Nina cuba utk bahagia dkt asrama ,
Mcm yg abang suruh .
Sbb abg kata ,
Adik happyΒ²lah kat asrama ,
Sbb abg faham ,
Kat rumah adik menangis .
Tak pa abg , nina faham .
Ibu dgn abah kerja .
Kerja utk kita jugak π
Nina cuma kecewa sbb
Family nina bkn mcm family org lain .
Family orang lain bahagia ,
Bukan makna family kita tak bahagia ,
Cuma ibu dgn abah sibuk kerja .
Tak pa abah ,
Tak pa ibu ,
Nina faham .
Nina ada bik jah ,
Nina ada bik yah .
Tak pa ibu , abah ,
Depa boleh jaga nina π
Ibu dgn abah jgn risau tau .
Nina okay .
Nina happy kat asrama .
Abah dgn ibu jgn risau .
Nina cuba utk gelak ,
Nina cuba utk senyum .
Nina cuba tau π
Tadi nina pergi hospital dgn bibik dgn pak mail ,
Doc ckp blood pressure nina rendah ,
Doc nak tahan nina tadi ,
Nina refused .
Nina tak nak kena tahan .
Sbb abah dgn ibu dah nak balik ,
Nina nak pegi ambil abah dengan ibu dekat airport .
Nina rindu tau .
Nina tak bg bibik bagitau ibu dgn abah yang nina kena masuk wad .
Nina tak nak duduk dekat wad ..
Nina nak duduk dgn abah ibu .
Nina rindu β‘
Bye abah ,
Bye ibu .
Nina tunggu abah dgn ibu balik tau β‘
Yr one and only princess ,
NINA .
Everything β€
"You mean so much to me , β€"
Boo ,
For my last year ,
I want the night time together ,
Sleeping together,
Waking up together ,
I want to be with you ,
Just with you π
I want to spend time with you ,
To make memories ,
To spend endless amounts of time with you .
I want beauiful moments with you ,
I want to be with you on your good days or on your worst days ,
I want to shed your tears ,
I want to comfort you ,
I want to cheer you up .
I want you to be with me when im totally lost ,
I want you to hold me ,
I want you to help me when im scared ,
I want you to come right to the edge to see whats there ,
I want to make you happy as you desire ,
Not only for a moment ,
But forever π
I'll always be there ,
With you .
No matter what is going to happen ,
Because ,
My love will always be with you .
I'll give you everything that you want ,
Because ,
If you truly love someone , you want what the best for them , even it means letting go .
Please ,
Dont make us only temporary .
I love you ? Yes i do .
Because ,
You'll always be my forever π
Thanks for being there ,
Thanks for being a perfect sistur .
I love you , dearest sistur .
Uhuhks πΈ
Bcs nobody compares to you β€
Boobear β‘
" i love you more than i did before β‘ "
NURIN AQILAH β‘ Uhuks .
Thanks for coming into my life and giving me joy π
Thanks for loving me and receiving my love in return β₯
Thanks for all the memories that i will cherish forever β
But most of all ,
Thanks for being with me when i really need you ππ
Boo ,
If loving you is wrong ,
Then i dont want to be right .
If loving you is a crime ,
Then i would like to be jailed for my entire life in your heart β‘
Ihiks .
You know what ?
The sun wouldnt be red βπ»
The sea wouldnt be blue π
The stars wouldnt be bright β
And it is important for you to know ,
I wouldnt be happy without you , dear love β‘
Ermm .
There're many ways to say I LOVE YOU ,
But not enough words to say how much ππππ
I know that behind your smile , there're sorrows ,
Behind your laughter , there're are tears .
But ,
You have to know that , behind you is me ,
Who always be there for you π
Dear Booπ» ,
I love you a little bit more when you call me Booskie β
I love you a little bit more when i sleep with you π€
I love you a little bit more when you smile at me π
I love you a little bit more everydayyyyy , boobear β₯β₯
And ,
Thank you making my heart beat so fast , but so much slower at the same time π
Thank you making me smile by being with you π
Thank you for giving me memories for me to keep π
Thank you for making me feel those giggly feelings once more when i thought i wouldnt be able to feel that type of emotions again π
Thanks for being a best friend for me or should i say - a sistur πππ
And lastly , thanks for everything boobear . I love you and i'll always do π
Ermm .
I knw , i annoyed you sometimes , no , i always annoyed you β‘
And im so sorry .
Ai Laf You again .
Bye boobear .
π
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Well known as Queen W.